new me

its kaamatan holiday now :) yeahhh!

normally i would be depressed and wanting to go back to the past. coming back to KK! well now after 2 years of enduring, i can now control the emotion. but still there is a little part of me left at kk hahaha :) "i can joke about it now"

to people who doesn't know about what is kaamatan, well not only people from peninsular or sarawak but i realize that nowadays even sabahan doesnt know what is KAAMATAN -.- well people please stay true to the tradition dont just think high of the western life. culture is one of a great heritage that make our name known to the tourist just so u know. why? and how do i know? i am a tourism student, we have been taught a lot about tourist arrival and their reason. the big part of it is because of culture. okay im blabbering right now hahaha sorry peeps.

well simply said, kaamatan is like hari gawai in sarawak and it is harvest day. hahaa :)

i have a new hobby now. the old malyda will probably think its a damn boring and old  hobby but who cares. its me after all. its scrapbook! :) i have a project i plan to keep in track with time. well the other hobby is word search im doing it to stay focus not to catch up with the record time hehhe

well guys have fun on your holiday no matter where u are. promise me <3

im at a payphone trying to call home

its a cover of maroon 5- payphone. this two ladies has an amazing voice even an angels will get jealous of :)

TOUCH :P

hahahahahaha eeeeuuwwwwwwwlahh <3
well hello brader,

        everything has changed. even the blog changed. how long i didnt open my blog. maybe a little bit over a month? o.o no internet, living in a dorm, laptop sucks. & that is all the reason for me not updating this little diaries of mine. everyoneeee has changed, but i like it. i have grown up to be mature little by little. it happens all the time. haven't seen my angels for a loooooooooooong time </3 i miss you guys. you know who u are <3

a never ending story

well everything seems okay kan? but nothing is ok. that is why a saying said that " don't judge a book by its cover" is ever existed. nothing is okay. its just that we need to move on. like the person said before, "it takes time". it does for me to. i really tend to forgive damn easily that sometimes i hate myself for it. but i did  not forget easily. so maybe it will be months, years or maybe decades but still we should move on with life.

enough with this little teenage drama now its time to concentrate real well with this short sem. i enjoyed studying this short sem <3 really really enjoy it despite all the things that happen. we only have 3 course which is the entrepreneurship, sales and marketing and lastly tourist behavior! we jump to the sem5 courses which our seniors did not take yet sooo hmm maybe we are a senior in this subject? hahaha :)

i realize something about myself today. i "want an immediate result" that is my personal behavior as if in a entrepreneur thingyyy.

how do you handle problems that come to you in a bunch at once?
recently, the people i cherish and love is making my heart hurt a lot by words and actions. friends, family and even the world is being unfair. but yet still here i am writing this nonsense . there's another more month for new sem to start, i should get a hold of myself..
money money money should save some money for fee.

"its okay, its alright, everything gonna turn out well" is words that i repeat to myself to chill my burning heart that want to kick some ass. but who am i fooling? nothingg is gonna turn out well by lying to our ownself.

it sucks. haihhh